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Sharing good news while I still have it to share! (long)
Sorry, can?t bring myself to join The Bump yet, so hope you don?t mind me spilling my guts over here instead.
Some of you know my almost-2-year-TTC story, and the good news is I?m 6-7 weeks pregnant! This is the furthest I?ve ever gotten. (I had two chemical pregnancies as a result of working with Shady Grove Fertility.)
The not-so-good news is that at the ultrasound yesterday, when we saw the heartbeat flickering for the first time, it was really slow. They estimated 40-60 bpm. The statistics on this are not good, and they basically told me to expect to miscarry in the next week or so.
I?ve already lived in fear with this pregnancy and every other cycle this year, and am tired of the fear stopping me from living the rest of my life. As long as I have symptoms and no cramping or bleeding and the ultrasounds progress, I will keep up hope. We?ll just have to see what happens by next Thursday.
A bright spot about this pregnancy (even if it doesn?t result in a healthy baby) is that we had just quit with Shady Grove because our 6 IUIs were over and we didn?t want to go to IVF right away. It was my first unmedicated cycle, and I somehow managed to ovulate on my own for the first time in 2 years. I credit the 6 months of acupuncture I?d been doing, some supplements, changing my diet, and losing about 10 pounds. So I?m happy and confident that I can get pregnant again on my own in the future. If hope rules, I?m due in August, and if not, hope is still not lost because I?m still confident I?ll be a mom someday soon.
Thanks for reading and letting me process it here before I start sharing with my best girlfriends. I want to start the new year with a sense of peace about TTC instead of letting my life feel ruled by it. Please keep us in your thoughts and say a prayer for whatever is next and best for the baby. Thanks again.
Re: Sharing good news while I still have it to share! (long)
Diana, I am literally in tears for you right now. I AM SO HAPPY FOR YOU!!!!!!! Congratulations! What a truly wonderful way to end the year.
ETA -GAH! I was so excited, that I skipped the paragraph about the heartbeat. I'm going to be thinking nothing but good, good, thoughts for you and baby.
Ditto Hey Jellisy - you have the most awesome outlook on life, it's incredible.
Stay strong and keep doin' what you're doin'.
I wish you nothing but the best, you'll definitely be in my thoughts.
We make the rockin' world go 'round.
Baby248 - ETA 1/10/13
tons and tons and TONS of good thoughts and *sticky dust* to you!!! i am so, so proud of your attitude about this. thinking of you & otto and hoping that everything looks good in the coming weeks and months! *hugs*
Thanks for sharing about your journey and I will be sending sticky vibes your way. What you wrote about your outlook reminded me of a mantra I read once which helped me when there were days where I worried about my pregnancy. The mantra is "I am pregnant today and I love my baby". Saying that in my head, always brought me a bit of peace when I was overwhelmed with fear. T&P are going out to you.
T&P your way! Congrats on making it this far! Your attitude is inspiring.
Planning Bio
This is exactly what I was going to write. This was really helpful to me, too.
I am so excited for you and will be keeping you in my thoughts and prayers.
Well said - thinking of you Diana!
your answer to the QOTD y'day got me wondering if you are pregnant. Congratulations and don't lose hope! I love your attitude and you are always welcome to join us on the DC Bump Board!!
This was my mantra too. I had a complicated pregnancy, but I really tried to also keep thinking that "I'm pregnant today and worrying about tomorrow doesn't do much good."
I'm so happy for you. Your outlook is so inspiring. I'll keep my fingers and toes crossed for you.
I was really hoping that this was what this post was going to be about when I opened it. I'm holding out hope for your little one and I'll be thinking of you. Your outlook is amazing. I'm truly inspired by you.
You're welcome to join us on the bump whenever you want!
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You just HAVE to keep being such a freaking inspiration, don't you??
I'm so happy for your progress and I hope for great things for you!
Congratulations!
I am crossing all my fingers for you that this one sticks, and even if it doesn't, it's still extremely promising that you did this without medical intervention!
Congratulations! What amazing news. I am sorry for your losses and all that you have been through. Infertility is a hard, draining thing. Keep us updated on how your precious bean is doing.
Thank you all so much for giving me an outlet, and responding with such support and optimism! This feels so much better than hibernating and crying, which has taken up too much of my year already.
And thanks for the compliments on my attitude. Believe me, it took months to get here, and without sharing it, sometimes it waivers. There are a LOT of strong women on this board who?ve set positive examples and who?ve been inspirational ? Mrs. Habious being an obvious ?kick cancer?s *ss? inspiration, but also so many of you who?ve also faced infertility, and health scares, and family health scares, and job losses, and big transitions, and rotten family members you rise above ? you all inflate that positive attitude, and I thank you for encouraging me by example.
I also do realize that in every other way I have it so good, and I?m grateful. This is the hardest thing in my life right now, but I still have a great partner, good friends, comfort, security, health, fun, etc. I?m just so glad to be able to still vent and melt down here ? thank you, ladies!
Oh, wow. I'm so happy everything worked out for you! Thank you - your success story will defintiely keep me going a little stronger this week.
I've been lurking on the First Tri board and the August 2012 board and have seen this phrase there several times ... I will definitely be thinking this. Thanks for reminding me!