Hey gals!
I hope everyone is having a fabulous day today! I figured I was in need of a vent/confession, and perhaps some of you need to unload as well. So, this is your thread!
#1. I swear that this cycle has me more emotional than ever. I'm usually a very calm person ALL the time. But for some reason, I'm like way more sensitive, tired, "depressed", and just blah than I ever have been before. Yet I can hear my mom in the back of my head saying, "take more B-Complex! You'll be much happier..." I wont do it. But I know I should.
#2. All of my numbers will be related to #1. So, just know that I'm simply in the moment, feeling down and will chipper up soon. There is no need to change my SN to "Frowns325"
#3. I WANT CHOCOLATE! Like, all.the.freaking.TIME! Nothing else sounds appetizing, including meals. I just need chocolate. I don't even have anything specific that sounds good. Cookies. Maybe chocolate cookies. Or Hersey's chocolate kisses. Or how about cookies with Hersey's chocolate kisses. Just chocolate. I'm not picky! This is especially annoying because I'm doing Turbo Fire and need to be smart about my eating, but how can I be smart about my eating if all I want is what's bad for me? (Chocolate)
#4. I feel so bad for H. Ugh. I know the past few days I have been snapping at him for random things, I'm not feeling like my cuddly self, I am defensive, I think he's being rude to me all the time. (When in reality, I don't think he's changed, it's just my freaking hormones!) I don't feel any attraction right now. I KNOW it's because of the hormones, because, ever since I laid my eyes on that male, I went goo-goo-gah-gah and have been madly in love with him. But for some reason, I'm.not.feeling.it.
I need a hug. And chocolate. I need a few hours to myself. And chocolate. I need a happy chick flick movie and chocolate. I need a day at the spa, gym and chocolate.
If you read through all of this. I love you. And I will do anything for you.
Now, who has some chocolate?!??!?!
---I now turn the time over to you, to throw up in this here bucket as I just did.
ETA: That last part was really gross. Sorry about that.
Re: Confessions/Rants/Vents/News...whatever!
*hugs* I think that is one of the worst things to realize, or have proven to us. That someone who we have always thought was so wonderful, really isn't. I'm sorry. I know you were counting on your time with him a lot and it's so lame that he cancelled. How much longer do you have here?
And I need to go read your post about your taxes so I can know what's going on.
Vent: MIL has been told not to let my dogs out if I'm not home. She let my 2 plus FIL's 1 out together in the yard today. My GSD is supposed to be on low activity because she got spayed last week. MIL accidentally let her out of the yard and she mobbed around the neighborhood. She now has a saratoma. It should go away on its own within a month but it's still frustrating.
I don't have any GOOD confessions or news.
I hadn't noticed but now that you mention it, I hope everything is okay.
My confession is that I've wanted to cyber slap everyone lately that has posted on FB or other boards about missing their H who was gone for the night or weekend, or even a week. I know that they are not in similar situations, and everyone is entitled to their own feelings, but holy eff if I'm having a bad day and see it I just want to delete people.
I guess that's also a rant and vent, since I just can't fathom being so dependent on someone, even H, that I can't be away from them for a night or week without making a FB post about how much I miss them.
Vent: My Brother and SIL finally moved out this past weekend. However they left some things behind and my SIL sold one on craigslist today. They are now 18 hours from where we live (by car). I get a text asking what time i will be home today so that the person can pick up it up. I let her know. But who does that? She asked us to take care of it and we had a plan and then she goes and does this. To top it off H is gone and we don't like people we don't know coming to our house when he is here let alone intentionally inviting someone to come buy something when he isn't (and i am alone). Yes I can protect myself we have dogs, an alarm and other things i can use to protect myself but still. Yes I know I am anti-social.
I told her to never do this again that I don't appreciate it as we have already made plans and I don't like strange people coming to my house when H is gone. And yes I am usually one of those people that hide from door to door solicitors (sp?) and pretend I am not home.
The Dogs and Us
Agreed on the first and Yes! to the second.
Vent: One of our BFF's is gearing up for deployment and he has a beebee girlfriend that M and I can't stand. She's still in college, hates the Army because her BF had to leave her and is already planning her future wedding. She found her dream dress "inspired by one of those Disney Princess dresses!" Gag! He's excited to make deployment pay so he can "buy that $15,000 Tiffany's ring she wants." Dude has like a billion student loans too. It's getting hard to mind my own business with them.I secretly miss Ojo a ton and not having her on the board for this last while has made me really scared. I almost got to the point of PMing people and demanding to know if she's okay. That's my confession.
I'm really overwhelmed about Guam today. Even though all I've complained about for the last few months is getting OUT of Louisiana.
It's putting a nasty cloud over everything. My family has decided we must want to punish them for some reason, otherwise we would never "do" something as terrible as run off to a rock in the middle of the ocean with their grandchild(ren). This ridiculous idea has left me in tears, screaming, refusing to go home in one week (which is something I've been looking forward to for months) and other ridiculous hormonal outbursts. I feel out of control and like a for real whiny bish.
Smiles - I am sorry hormones are turning your world upside down. Also, I'm not a huge chocolate person but I finished a tub of rocky road ice cream (mostly by myself other than about 3-4 cones) in a week. I justified it by saying I haven't eaten much of anything for the last 6 weeks, which is true but still a ridiculous justification.
I hope you feel better soon!
Ojo is totally okay, babies are okay! She's just been busy. I just typed busty instead of busy, which she also is, Heeeeey!
I was thinking that this morning.
I really, really want to eat some chocolate chip cookies right now. I'm trying to cut my sugar intake way down in an effort to combat my acne, since I can't take anything for it while BFing.
Thanks hun. I needed to hear that really badly.
My rant/vent is that my MIL is coming to stay for a week to help with the move since I'll be doing it solo (plans changed and I'll be moving in a matter of weeks rather than months). I know I wouldn't be able to do it without her help and yet I don't want it.
Having her coming has me more stressed out about the move itself. Wanna know the most stressful thing I worry about? Her snoring. She snores like a beast and the girls and I will be sharing a hotel with her just about the entire week. I'm terrified none of us are going to get sleep. If I so much as suggest that she get her own room I would never hear the end of it and I just can't handle that.
Also I threw out almost an entire box of Samoas and half a box of Thin Mints and I wish I hadn't. I wish I hated chocolate as much as I hate being fat.
Hey-o! That is really good to hear.
Ditto. Also, all the freaking out and stressing you're doing is probably what has made you late.
Seriously, it has helped me so much. I don't know where I would be without my counselor.
I want a cookie soooooooo bad. Or ice cream with sprinkles.... Or anything with sugar really. Gah, it's killing me I want it so bad.
I feel like a lazy a. for not applying to jobs like I should be. I need one, but I am way more focused on getting through this semester that I have pretty much left that on the back burner. There has got to be a way to do both right? Geeze.
Also, I have been really wanting my mommy lately. And not just any maternal figure, I want her... The woman who gave birth to me. I just want to talk to her and figurelife out a little, and I can't. Ugh. Her disease sucks so bad. Seriously, I wouldn't wish it on my worst enemy.
Hugs.
The last 2 weeks have been awful at work. A ton of people were laid off recently, so those of us who are left have a ton of extra work to pick up. Its making me *slightly* wish I had gotten let go. But I know we can use the money right now.
Yesterday at work an elderly patient with dementia tried to hull off and hit me....twice. The only thing that saved me was, well, he was elderly. And slow.
The most beautiful place on earth to me: Glacier NP
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Yay for being OK and busty!
And I also miss BBGurl, and for real never got all up in arms over what happened in the first place. (hides from the whole board)
I'm almost 100% positive that counselors or self referable. Also Military One Source doesn't need a referral.