Today has brought two sad stories into my life.
1) I've mentioned before that DH and I are grad students and TAs at a university in Indiana before. For our privacy, I hadn't named the university, but today someone walked into a classroom at our school with a gun (
http://www.cnn.com/2014/01/21/justice/purdue-shooting-report/) and I'm having more trouble with it than I expected. DH doesn't want to talk about it, and I thought of you ladies for support.
I spent an hour on lockdown today with a handful of other students, about half a mile from the shooting, and DH was at home. It was a targeted attack on one person, but at the time all we knew was that a shooting was reported and we were not supposed to go anywhere. I've been crying at weird things. My heart goes out in a new way today to the victims and witnesses of public tragedies. I am surprised at the strength of my reaction to today, and I know that my experience doesn't even hold a candle to those of the people who were actually there (and that honestly, this shooting was not nearly as scary as so many others).
2) We got a call tonight that DH's mom was in a car accident. She is in the ER and we have basically no idea how she's doing. Hopefully DH will hear more from his aunt about it soon.
Anyway, thank you for reading if you got this far. I guess there's no point to this, other than to vent.
UPDATE: Apparently, a driver had a stroke and ran a red light, T-boning MIL as she was turning. She broke her pelvis and is, of course, in a lot of pain. Sadly, we're already worrying about how the bill will be paid. She is unemployed with no savings and no insurance and most of her family, including us, is not really in a position to help.

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I hope your MIL heals as well. Sending thoughts and prayers to you, your family and your work community.
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She is probably within her 60 days!!! Perhaps you and family can scrape up the 400/500 dollars to pay her monthly premium?! I would move on this ASAP.
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Also, I'm sorry that you had to go through that. I can't imagine how terrifying that is. I hope that you can find some peace.
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Wow! I really don't know how I'd deal with being in that position. I'm so sorry you had to deal with that stress, but glad that you and everyone in your class was safe. And ditto PP's about counseling, I would imagine that if I were in your shoes, I'd probably be in a bit of shock having been through that, and it'd be good to talk through everything, and process it better. ((hugs))
So sorry about your MIL, too. Hopefully the other driver's insurance will help cover the costs, and that she heals quickly.
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