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Butter Cookie

My confession: I went through about a 6 month phase where nothing made me cry. Now I get weepy eyed at everything. Every. Thing. Sht that should not make me cry I'm getting choked up over. I'm not sure what that's about, and I have to slap myself to pull out of it. It's kind of annoying. Then again I hated the not being able to cry thing too.

ReturnOfKuus

I got weepy like that after starting birth control pills.  Before that, I never cried. 

Butter Cookie

I wish I could use that excuse, but I've been on birth control since I was 17. Come to think of it, it would have been a smarter move just to get an IUD or two. My demon reproductive organs would probably manage to get rid of it though.

LnR70707

I've actually gotten progressively weepier the longer I've been off BC.  Also, since my surgery I've lost my taste for gross horror movies.  That gives me a sad.

MinM

After the movies, I was waiting for H in the lobby, killing time by reading a book. Some punkass kid pushed his way by me, knocking into my book. I was thisclose to sticking my leg out in order to trip him. I take my not doing so as a sign of great personal growth.

**Stinky!**

I get incredibly weepy around my period. It's ridonkulous.

PMeg819

My crying is unbelievable. And I never cried pre-pregnancy. Now throw in losing your job...last week was a waterworks. And this is with medication.

Confession: I'm excited to give birth. Like cannot wait. I'm sure this will change. I'm also excited to go to the midwife this week.

Cant_wait!

One of my goals for this year is to be a "better" person. I'm trying not to cuss as much...and cutting down on my making fun of people. the second part is especially hard.

*Barbie*

MinM:

After the movies, I was waiting for H in the lobby, killing time by reading a book. Some punkass kid pushed his way by me, knocking into my book. I was thisclose to sticking my leg out in order to trip him. I take my not doing so as a sign of great personal growth.

 I have clotheslined kids with Heelies before.

I also laughed at a kid who fell/got hurt because he was trying to go up a down escalator. He wasn't seriously injured, and he completely wiped out. Hilarious. The mom overheard me laugh, got pissed, and made a comment to me - I told her that a good parent wouldn't let their kid play on the escalator.

 

L_Woods

It's 60-something degrees outside. I go out every 30 or so minutes to stand and/or walk because inside the building it is 30 degrees (okay, probably 45, but my hands turn blue). People think I'm in important meetings when I am away from my desk. Not so much.

loveshine1

I have the same new years resolution, CW. I'm trying to be better, be less judgmental and make fun of people less.

My BFF's brother and his wife are having a baby. I'm judging them HARD for several reasons, and DH is getting annoyed with it, telling me that it has nothing to do with me.

**Stinky!**

PMeg819:

My crying is unbelievable. And I never cried pre-pregnancy. Now throw in losing your job...last week was a waterworks. And this is with medication.

Confession: I'm excited to give birth. Like cannot wait. I'm sure this will change. I'm also excited to go to the midwife this week.

Confession: I would like to see what pregnancy and labor is like, minus having a kid when it's all said and done. 

**O-Face**

SIL looked like an old lady-the way she dressed for NYE.  I don't even know if she even tried to look nice.

PMeg819

Stinky, I'm not delusional to think that labor is going to be puppies and rainbows but is going to be serious, hard work that will hurt like nothing else on earth. But...there is a physiological reason it is like that, and it will be worth it in the end when I hold my baby. Also, being pregnant and (hopefully) giving birth makes you feel like She Woman Conqueror of the World sometimes. But sometimes being pregnant blows.

zsazsa-stl

I overheard SIL say something on Saturday that made me think she was pregnant.  I want to be happy for them, but I couldn't control the jealousy so I just slipped away and layed down in a bedroom for a while.  Turns out she isn't pg...yet.  They are just trying and very baby crazy right now.  I need to get a grip on myself before the big announcement comes.

Butter Cookie

Zsa have you totally resigned to not having kids or what? Please call me Ms. Nosyface. You don't have to answer my ridiculously personal question, but I hope you do. kthx.

~~Busy.~~

I feel guilty when people call me skinny.  I'm not skinny I just know how to dress for my body. Accentuate the positive and all that. If they saw me naked they probably laugh at my jelly belly.

zsazsa-stl

Butter Cookie:

Zsa have you totally resigned to not having kids or what? Please call me Ms. Nosyface. You don't have to answer my ridiculously personal question, but I hope you do. kthx.

I don't mind.  I've talked on here before about it.  I can't have children.

Butter Cookie

Oh, I didn't know that. Would you adopt?

TheDuckis

I don't think it's fair that I have to get up at 3 am and 6 am every night to take the dog out, because when we have kids I'm going to be the one that has to get up every 2 hours to feed them. I think that since taking care of the dog doesn't require mammary glands that H should have all the night-time puppy shifts. I know it's irrational, and I would never actually tell H this. So far we're doing a decent job of splitting it up.

alikatt17

I cried more when my dog died than my grandma's passing on NYE.  I dread going to the funeral because that means I have to see my dad for the first time in more than 5 years.  I've been feeling sick to my stomach because of that fact and it pisses me off that my hatred for my father is overshadowing my grandma's death.

 DH told me that he wants a vascetomy last week.  I don't really want kids  at the moment, but I don't know if I want to say never just quite yet.  I told him in 5 years that if neither of us wants kids, then he can get snipped.  He's ok with that.  He'd rather have kids he doesn't really want because I want them instead of losing me, which is a pretty jacked up reason to have kids.  I don't think I'll ever be able to have kids just knowing that.

nicoleg1982

My first post partum period showed up this a.m.  I ruined my pants, I'm sure.  The irony, I was picking up DD when the flood appeared. 

I'm sitting here reading coirker's emails.  We're firing her on Wednesday and I'm digging for extra ammunition, even though we don't need it.  Too bad there's plenty here, though.

zsazsa-stl

Butter Cookie:

Oh, I didn't know that. Would you adopt?

I would but I can't because I married an old man.  They don't let old men adopt.  I could divorce DH and adopt on my own, but I don't think he would appreciate that.

zsazsa-stl

nicoleg1982:

I'm sitting here reading coirker's emails.  We're firing her on Wednesday and I'm digging for extra ammunition, even though we don't need it.  Too bad there's plenty here, though.

I will confess that this sounds like the most fun work activity ever.

baconsmom

zsazsa-stl:

Butter Cookie:

Oh, I didn't know that. Would you adopt?

I would but I can't because I married an old man.  They don't let old men adopt.  I could divorce DH and adopt on my own, but I don't think he would appreciate that.

Even if you go through the state? Will they let you foster-to-adopt?

Also, if you would like a 5-year-old to take to the Sanrio store and buy Hello Kitty things for, I can buy a plane ticket. She'll be wearing a HK backpack.

GBCK

alikatt17:

 He'd rather have kids he doesn't really want because I want them instead of losing me, which is a pretty jacked up reason to have kids.  I don't think I'll ever be able to have kids just knowing that.

I will say...this sucks but can be workable.

Because that's where the conversation started for us.  But...it was on hold until he decided he *wanted* them (instead of just doing it for me...of course, the fact that I was willing to not have kids for him was just as jacked in it's own way).  

But the interim sucks--I think it sucks even more than a firm decision sucks. 

**Stinky!**

I second that! Any dirt you can share?

Butter Cookie

What about foster parenting? Could you do that? And what about international adoption? I thought they adopted to all sorts of people. I guess that would require vast amounts of money. 

baconsmom

Ali - H never wanted kids. At least, he didn't think he really wanted kids, but he didn't know, but blah blah, the man can't make up his mind, so it's a good thing Bacon was an accident.

He'd never choose differently if he could go back. I think a lot of men don't have the same biological imperative to care for children, but once they're here, they fall in love. It might not be as horrible as it sounds for him to be so ambivalent right now.

GBCK

On the confess front...

w/ everything that's happened in the past year, now isn't, financially, a sound time for babies.  We were getting all the tests because that answered treatment for migraine questions more than anything.

It was still what we *wanted* but...it's not practical.  it's swingable, but, BARELY.

The ONLY reason we didn't start using protection again around Thanksgiving was because our odds were so very very low that it was redonkulous.  And I hated the idea of killing my chances when the odds were *that* low.

We were going to scrimp and pay off some debt and re-evaluate this summer--which is to say, we'd start offically 'working' toward adoption this summer.

I am going to hve to ask relatives to be underpaid childcare.  that hurts my pride and kinda sucks.

alikatt17

If they'll adopt a Romanian dwarf baby to a dwarf couple on a TLC documentary, I don't see why they wouldn't adopt a kid to a very awesome woman and her non-elderly husband.