Strange conversation

awick14

starrieskies:

I'm in kind of a strange place now, where I would like it if we could work things out, but if we couldn't I think I would be ok with that.  One way or the other, I deserve to be happy

The bolded is very true. You need to figure out what it will take to make you happy, and start down that path. 

Maybe ask you H to go to couples counseling. (At least if you do want to save the marriage)

Just remember no matter what he says or does it is not all your fault if your marriage fails. 

starrieskies

We've discussed counseling briefly, but I have not pushed the issue because my therapist cautioned me against couples therapy with an abusive personality.  She suggested I ask him to go to a therapist on his own for his anger issues  before we attempt couples counseling.  Thus far, H has been, shall we say, hesitant to admit he has an issue and therefore believes that he does not need counseling. 

Muddled

I find myself wondering why you are trying to save this marriage.

starrieskies

Sometimes I find myself wondering the same thing.  But then there are times when I wonder why I wouldn't.  I'm kind of in a place of limbo right now, where I'm not sure which direction is the right direction for me. 

When we're good, we're amazing.  Unfortunately, when we're not, I'm miserable.  I just haven't really decided if the good is worth the bad.

AshleyR2452

broccolitree:

That doesn't even make sense as a response.  It's like someone asking, "what do you want for dinner tonight?" and replying, "no, but the azaleas are lovely this time of year."

 

Exactly!  This just made me laugh out loud!