I'm going to keep posting nonsense

noisy_penguin

When I worked at a coffee shop in Seattle, every time I took the trash out to the dumpsters I'd knock first to wake up any homeless people in there because once I almost threw a bag of garbage on some poor sleeping guy's face. We have big dumpsters at our apartment complex now, and I continued to do that every time I took the garbage out, until I realized that homeless people in Seattle were in the dumpsters to get out of the rain. Homeless people in San Diego aren't sleeping in dumpsters because for the most part they can find somewhere warm and dry to sleep that does not smell like garbage.  Like, did I think the ones in Seattle were doing it just for fun? WTF is wrong with me?

krisdi78

noisy_penguin:

When I worked at a coffee shop in Seattle, every time I took the trash out to the dumpsters I'd knock first to wake up any homeless people in there because once I almost threw a bag of garbage on some poor sleeping guy's face. We have big dumpsters at our apartment complex now, and I continued to do that every time I took the garbage out, until I realized that homeless people in Seattle were in the dumpsters to get out of the rain. Homeless people in San Diego aren't sleeping in dumpsters because for the most part they can find somewhere warm and dry to sleep that does not smell like garbage.  Like, did I think the ones in Seattle were doing it just for fun? WTF is wrong with me?

But they still do sometimes sleep in the dumpsters in CA!  When we lived there and were moving we'd go to the dumpsters behind the grocery store for cardboard boxes.  I opened one and jumped because I was not expecting someone to be sleeping in there. It freaked me out.  At least it was the recycling dumpster though and not one full of old stinky garbage, so at least there's that...

crancherry

noisy_penguin:

Walking around and acting like nobody likes you makes nobody like you. I'm not saying I don't like you, but that's not what you should give people to start off with.  Are you in therapy? Also, why the bad day? Just a bad mood? What specifically happened in your childhood to make everyone hate you?

So my effing phone ate my reply. Just a bad day from a bad mood which was exacerbated by the steroids. Apparently I am not the only one who doesn't do well on them.

I don't think "nobody likes me guess i'll go eat worms" unless I have my crazy pants on, which only happens when I'm having a really really bad day. I think the last time I had an episode like this was when I was on prednisone for my bronchitis last year.

Actually I think most people have a neutral to good opinion of me. And for the most part I think I'm pretty okay. I grew up a really sensitive kid around a lot of jackholes, and sometimes that experience colors the present more than it should. I really need a life more than I need therapy, I think.

EssBe

I had a list of automatic thoughts or some *** from my therapist but I threw it away because I spilled soda on it. I'm sure I can get another one if you need it though. Reading those was pretty eye opening. 

Hint: people don't actually think you're a jack wagon.  

 

crancherry

EssBe:

I had a list of automatic thoughts or some *** from my therapist but I threw it away because I spilled soda on it. I'm sure I can get another one if you need it though. Reading those was pretty eye opening. 

Hint: people don't actually think you're a jack wagon. 

Ooh, could you? I feel like this is like basic math, I over-think it so I need to write it down and look at it and then it all makes sense in my head. 

Also jackwagon is my favorite non-swear epithet.

EssBe

I won't see her for like three weeks because I'm going on vacation soon.  But this is very similar to what she gave me.

Actually writing things down is great because then you can see exactly how much sense it does NOT make when it's staring you in the face.

Therapy is great, go get help if you need it.