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darva

04JaxBride:

i want to throw in the towel and cry for today.

nothing in particular, i am just having a sad day about people who are no longer with me.  i'm sad about the first thanksgiving without my grandma's cooking, and the way she used to always love to watch people enjoy her turkey, dressing, pies, and jelly.  i miss my dad terribly.

i guess also i'm sad knowing that my mom has to have poison flowing through her veins all weekend to try and ward off stupid effing cancer for another six months, and there isn't anything i can do to make it any easier for her, and she's going to feel so very awful.  i hate not knowing how life will be for her, how much longer she'll be able to work, or be able to be on her own.  that there's nothing i can do but watch her suffer.  i wonder if she's doing all this because she wants to, or if she feels like she has to do it because she doesn't want to let us down.  i'm mad that i know so many people who have been able to just get their diagnosis, have surgery and a round of chemo, and go back to normal life.  why does she have to be the one that suffers through 14 years of this crap?  

 

omg.  it felt so good to share that with real people.  thank you if you've read this far. 

  I'm sorry your mom has to go through that.  I have those feelings about my dad quite often when I hear of other people who have colon cancer and have surgery and they're done... So you aren't alone in those feelings.  *hugs*

 

04JaxBride

thanks girlies.  i love my momma.

aprilprincess

dana92504:

so sorry you're having a sad day, jax :-(. those days hit me sometimes too like a ton of bricks.....and what your mama is having to go through, that's just plain ol' shitty.

ditto and big HUGS.

TexasHarmony

YES!  My boss is OOT for 3 days.  I am hoping it is a very productive 3 days.  Please refrain from any excitement on here.

 

melrrr

FutureMrsJW:

And the raging clomid headaches are back.  Lovely....

Ugh. What does your doctor say? Kristen had to stop taking it because her headaches were so bad.  

almond1123

04JaxBride:

i want to throw in the towel and cry for today.

nothing in particular, i am just having a sad day about people who are no longer with me.  i'm sad about the first thanksgiving without my grandma's cooking, and the way she used to always love to watch people enjoy her turkey, dressing, pies, and jelly.  i miss my dad terribly.

i guess also i'm sad knowing that my mom has to have poison flowing through her veins all weekend to try and ward off stupid effing cancer for another six months, and there isn't anything i can do to make it any easier for her, and she's going to feel so very awful.  i hate not knowing how life will be for her, how much longer she'll be able to work, or be able to be on her own.  that there's nothing i can do but watch her suffer.  i wonder if she's doing all this because she wants to, or if she feels like she has to do it because she doesn't want to let us down.  i'm mad that i know so many people who have been able to just get their diagnosis, have surgery and a round of chemo, and go back to normal life.  why does she have to be the one that suffers through 14 years of this crap?  

 

omg.  it felt so good to share that with real people.  thank you if you've read this far. 

My heart is breaking for you.  i wish I knew the answers to some of those questions.  So much of life is just unfair.  Huge hugs.

aprilprincess

FutureMrsJW:

And the raging clomid headaches are back.  Lovely....

yuck, I'm sorry. How long do they want you to try the clomid for (as in how many cycles)?

twotexans

aprilprincess:

FutureMrsJW:

And the raging clomid headaches are back.  Lovely....

yuck, I'm sorry. How long do they want you to try the clomid for (as in how many cycles)?

This is my second cycle.  I responded well to the last one, so we are going to try again with the same dosage.  She is adding an Ovidrel booster, so I'm thrilled at the prospect of sticking myself with a needle.  :-s  We will probably do another after this, and the move on to IUI if it doesn't work.  My RE doesn't want to waste too much time, as I turn 35 next month, and we'd like to have more than one if possible.

FutureMrsJW

twotexans:

aprilprincess:

FutureMrsJW:

And the raging clomid headaches are back.  Lovely....

yuck, I'm sorry. How long do they want you to try the clomid for (as in how many cycles)?

This is my second cycle.  I responded well to the last one, so we are going to try again with the same dosage.  She is adding an Ovidrel booster, so I'm thrilled at the prospect of sticking myself with a needle.  :-s  We will probably do another after this, and the move on to IUI if it doesn't work.  My RE doesn't want to waste too much time, as I turn 35 next month, and we'd like to have more than one if possible.

I really need to ditch the second log in.   

aprilprincess

FutureMrsJW:

twotexans:

aprilprincess:

FutureMrsJW:

And the raging clomid headaches are back.  Lovely....

yuck, I'm sorry. How long do they want you to try the clomid for (as in how many cycles)?

This is my second cycle.  I responded well to the last one, so we are going to try again with the same dosage.  She is adding an Ovidrel booster, so I'm thrilled at the prospect of sticking myself with a needle.  :-s  We will probably do another after this, and the move on to IUI if it doesn't work.  My RE doesn't want to waste too much time, as I turn 35 next month, and we'd like to have more than one if possible.

I really need to ditch the second log in.   

I am not a fan of shots in the least, but did daily injections and it was ok. The oviderel didn't hurt much either. good luck! hopefully this works and you don't have to worry about the next cycle.

CareBear01

dana92504:

darva:

I need to decide today so that I can make all the arrangements, but I just can't figure out what to do.    

since you can make arrangements for everything else, go to the game and enjoy the getaway with your hubs!

Agree! 

darva

Thanks for the input ladies... That's what I'm going to do, provided I can make everything else work.  DH says "just say "can't do it this week, sorry" but it's just not that easy for me when people are depending on me in some way.

 

So silly, but I won two tickets to the Nutcracker Market this morning on KSBJ and I'm super excited about it! lol

FinallyKrisB

darva:

So silly, but I won two tickets to the Nutcracker Market this morning on KSBJ and I'm super excited about it! lol

That's not silly!  Winning stuff is exciting.

missjake

darva:

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So silly, but I won two tickets to the Nutcracker Market this morning on KSBJ and I'm super excited about it! lol

Thats awesome! I'd be super excited too! 

Kimmer123

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

sad5781

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

YAY!  Thats great news.  From what I've heard, we are getting new providers at my work and I'm nervous.  

FutureMrsJW

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

That is wonderful! 

almond1123

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

 

halfpintaggie

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

Nice!

Kimmer123

sad5781:

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

YAY!  Thats great news.  From what I've heard, we are getting new providers at my work and I'm nervous.  

Few things freak me out like a pending insurance change. I'm so incredibly thankful that we have good (albeit expensive) health insurance, but it's something we have to have so we're at the mercy of someone else's decision. The last time DH's company changed our deductible tripled. I cried a whole bunch about that.

Our new individual deductible is going to be $200. I want to hug it. 

FutureMrsJW

Kimmer123:

sad5781:

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

YAY!  Thats great news.  From what I've heard, we are getting new providers at my work and I'm nervous.  

Few things freak me out like a pending insurance change. I'm so incredibly thankful that we have good (albeit expensive) health insurance, but it's something we have to have so we're at the mercy of someone else's decision. The last time DH's company changed our deductible tripled. I cried a whole bunch about that.

Our new individual deductible is going to be $200. I want to hug it. 

I am envious.  That is great, especially with another little one on the way.

missjake

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

aprilprincess

Kimmer123:

sad5781:

Kimmer123:

We just got the new benefit information for DH's new job. I want to cry tears of joy. We're going to save $2400/yr on our deductible and $50 per paycheck in premiums.

YAY!  Thats great news.  From what I've heard, we are getting new providers at my work and I'm nervous.  

Few things freak me out like a pending insurance change. I'm so incredibly thankful that we have good (albeit expensive) health insurance, but it's something we have to have so we're at the mercy of someone else's decision. The last time DH's company changed our deductible tripled. I cried a whole bunch about that.

Our new individual deductible is going to be $200. I want to hug it. 

that is awesome! we're really grown ups now when we're excited about insurance.

odear

At least I have a job....at least I have a job.....at least I have a job.....

kreeper611

odear:

At least I have a job....at least I have a job.....at least I have a job.....

Uh oh...big hugs.  Some days this is the best we can manage, right? 

almond1123

odear:

At least I have a job....at least I have a job.....at least I have a job.....

Oh no.  I've been repeating that myself very often lately. 

Along with, "if I could win the lottery."  I know that requires buying a ticket but still.

Hang in there.

halfpintaggie

I am telling my Dad tonight about the move.  I've put off telling him for much longer than I should have.  This is going to suck.  He didn't take it well when my sister moved overseas.  Now, his 2nd daughter is moving too.  That just leaves him with a son on this continent.  And he's a Marine, so God only knows where he'll be 3 months from now.

sad5781

halfpintaggie:

I am telling my Dad tonight about the move.  I've put off telling him for much longer than I should have.  This is going to suck.  He didn't take it well when my sister moved overseas.  Now, his 2nd daughter is moving too.  That just leaves him with a son on this continent.  And he's a Marine, so God only knows where he'll be 3 months from now.

lots of thoughts and hugs for you and your daddy.   

Kimmer123

halfpintaggie:

I am telling my Dad tonight about the move.  I've put off telling him for much longer than I should have.  This is going to suck.  He didn't take it well when my sister moved overseas.  Now, his 2nd daughter is moving too.  That just leaves him with a son on this continent.  And he's a Marine, so God only knows where he'll be 3 months from now.

  Hugs for you and you Dad

TexasHarmony

halfpintaggie:

I am telling my Dad tonight about the move.  I've put off telling him for much longer than I should have.  This is going to suck.  He didn't take it well when my sister moved overseas.  Now, his 2nd daughter is moving too.  That just leaves him with a son on this continent.  And he's a Marine, so God only knows where he'll be 3 months from now.

Not fun.  I hope it goes well.